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On A Thursday NightIt was 5AM to be exact.
I didn't know what you were thinking about me.
And you didn't know what I thought about you.
We kicked all the drunk ones out of our room.
I was expecting nothing.
I think you were too.
The lights were shut off.
As I layed down next to you.
Then you told me how much you enjoyed my company.
How much you thought my presence meant so much to you.
I felt a closeness.
Like nothing could compare.
We layed there in the darkness.
I felt you beginning to stroke my soft black hair.
Just the feel of lying there next to someone.
Someone who for atleast tonight would care about me.
All the other ones nev
I cut myself today.
Just for the thrill.
Because I was pissed.
Because I was upset.
Because I don't wanna live.
I just sat there.
Staring off into space.
Watching my blood drip.
Looking at my beautiful red flowing flesh wound.
As a red as a river.
The river Melanie.
Watch me as I drown myself in my own river.
Engulfing myself with my own blood.
Feeling crucified by my own cripling pain.
Not the physical.
But the emotional wounds.
Feeling so cold and freezing.
With hot, fresh salty tears running down my face.
The agony I feel is unbearable.
For so many reasons.
Everytime I think something is going to happen.
Like some good
Why Relationships Don't LastBetrayal.
Who Will Want You Now?After the storm is over.
After the rain is gone.
After the tears have drained.
After the nightmares are arest.
Who will want you now?
Through the cold lonely nights without someone to hold.
Through the years and years of growing old.
Through the ups and the downs.
Through the smiles and the frowns.
Who will want you now?
Will anyone ever want me now?
I don't know.
I feel hopeless.
With a heart that is usually cold.
Although it sometimes seems to melt for that special person...
But its probably like the same old story...it won't happen.
One-sided likings are a bitch.
I can only hope that it would go both ways someday.
UsWe do not belong to a specific "clique".
We do not feel the need to liked.
We do not feel the need to be trendy.
We do not feel the need to "fit in".
We can be our own people and be fine with that.
We do not want to be normal and plain like all the rest.
We don't care what others think of us.
We don't care how you see us.
We don't judge others as they do us!
We are the beginning of everything.
We are nothings.
People of light.
People of innovation.
People of salvation.
Most importantly...we are people of creation.
TogethernessTogetherness is beauty.
Beauty is you.
You are dark.
Darkness is appealing.
Appealing we are.
Are you feeling it too?
Too many times I have wept.
Wept over the sadness of not being with you.
You aren't getting this?
This is killing me that you don't understand.
Understand I am falling for you.
You are vulnerable and I do see.
See how we need to be one?
One perfect harmonious pair.
Pair of two souls.
Souls which have been searching for years.
Years which have gone so slow with our lonliness.
Lonliness that can be healed.
Healed by us being together.
Together we are one.
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`anmari has been spreading her infectious positivity throughout our community for over 6 years. Throughout this time Ana has been at the core of all things devious, passionately developing an eclectic gallery, helping organise devmeets, participating in chat events and also recently completed dedicating her time as a Community Volunteer. We are absolutely delighted to bestow the Deviousness Award for May 2013 to `anmari, congratulations! Read More